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Front Row, Surrounded by Pals, Lost in Music

++ Front Row, Surrounded by Pals, Lost in Music ++

Whalley-ite and publisher of the fanzine Terminally Stupid and Vancouver hardcore music historian of sorts Dan Walters shared this snap. Can ya spot me? I’m always front row and smiling – i like it loud and music was escape. Note middle part hair.

Anyhow, Dan writes, “York Theatre Feb 17 1985 TSOL headlined. In the photo with you, Brad, Kamel, Kai, Kelly, Tim is Judas Goat onstage- Dave and Brian from DOA with Andy Graffiti on drums.”

Kameljit Gill was a force of nature (it was early days for the Indian influx to Surrey), tall, fearless and creative and always stirring up trouble – also an asshole but it was Whalley, you sorta had to be – i havent seen him since these olden days. Kai (another big guy) and him would make me be the first stage diver at shows to get things going. They’d toss me up there and sometimes even catch me when i leapt – pain tolerance was higher than. Brad Rees and I were pretty inseparable and i snuck out and stayed at his house often cause his Mom was cool (still is) and we could play music in the basement (until a grumpy step-dad would get liquored and angry).

Lots of the punk bands (which to me were already legendary superheroes) had “Fuck Bands” where they’d switch up instruments and wear ridiculous costumes and adopt other personas (I recall Chainsaw Running with Dave Gregg on drums being another).

Our little squad of Whalley misfits were all very different but hung out cause we were punks in a land of metal hessians. We made fanzine and bands. Notably AOT (Abortions on Toast) which the aforementioned Mr. Walters digitized the cassette “Music to Eat Lightbulbs by” (which i’ll make a soundcloud for one of these days and share some snaps). Dan Barney has a tshirt. I don’t.

The York was such a great place as shows were all ages and, importantly for us suburban skid kids, *NOT* downtown. Busses were tough (this is pre-Skytrain when we rolled the 312 or 316 in) and sometimes we were stuck walking all the way to Hastings/Refrew PNE to catch a bus back to Surrey. This night, we got as far as Whalley Exchange which was a shit place to be at 1AM or so. Dayton boot clad Whalley Burnouts ruled Surrey then and you’d get stomped if not careful. I hated living there and music was my escape.

These few years (83-85) were halcyon times for me seeing dozens of bands. Saving my money from delivering Real Estate Weekly newspaper to see shows from Bowie at BC Place to Clash at Coliseum to Dead Kennedys at York and Ramones at Commodore (at 14) and dozens more including loads of California-based punk bands and DOA a few dozens times. Bill of Rights, Death Sentence, House of Commons, Shanghai Dog seemed to open up so many shows (hence the fuck bands to bring variety). Plus Bag O Dirt, Slits, I Braineater, Spores….

On a personal note: This night, my Mom picked me/us up at Whalley Exchange (called from a payphone at Mac’s), the 17th was her birthday and Dad was not thrilled i went to the show and out late and all that. A couple months later my parents were split and i moved to Utah. Life changed a lot. These were golden times for me and the only shows i regret are the ones i didn’t go to.

The York turned into the Raja cinema and then was evidently saved from demolition by East Van Cultch.

Did you see shows at the York? Were you a suburban kid escaping for music? Did music save you? Define you? Tell me about it.

Tarot Reading, Jan. 2018

My dear friend K. did this remote Tarot reading for me as she’s done a few times previous. Posting (slightly edited for personal-ness) notes here for reference to future self.

I’ve been channeling you all day though. I’m wearing the purple calico shirt you left at Dane’s. I stole it from him the last time I was there. (It looks better on me anyway!) I’m also wearing your mom’s Birkenstocks and listening to the Grateful Dead.



I set up the space with a bunch of Dave O memorabilia and letters. I put the photo of you in your Chinese garb on my phone to watch over the shuffling, cutting and dealing of cards.  Your energy was here in every way!

1.You: The Fool, one who walks without fear, you are attempting to manifest creativity, move toward wholeness and re-own your courage(how apt!)

2.Crossed by Love (2 of cups). I don’t think I need to define “love.” (Again, how apt!)

3.Distant past: Dominion (2 of wands) Drive to be a pioneer, dynamic energy, leadership ability.

4. Recent past: Peace (2 of swords) The mind is at peace on a subconscious level concerning two polarities, situations, or relationships.

5. The present: The Magus, the communicator. Gifted in areas of visual and auditory arts, mass media/ public relations.

6. Near future: Oppression (10 of wands) You are experiencing self-repression. There’s a fear you will not be understood or accepted. There’s determination to release this. Looking back ten years before may reveal the same feelings.

7. Present position: Debauch (7 of cups) Indicates a pattern of emotional overextension. You’re experiencing some depression and are trying to relieve the pain by overindulging.

8. Environmental factors (influence of others/ your influence on others): Satiety (10 of cups) Deep emotional satisfaction!!!

9.Hopes and fears: Death. DO NOT INTERPRET LITERALLY!!! It’s a great card! Something is ending and that makes way for a beginning. Like you said, you “burned down your old life” I also think you’re terrified of a new relationship ending badly.

10. Culmination: Science (6 of Swords). You have the gift of logical, rational thinking to communicate about something new that needs to be put forth in a clear, objective way to be understood and well received.



In conclusion: You seek a new love interest that is really satisfying, but you don’t want it to go up in flames. You are getting back to a place that you have that drive to create & communicate. Use your communication abilities to express yourself in a clear, rational way.

It’s kinda funny that you got no disks in this reading. Disks are related to health and wealth. I can only assume from this coincidence, that your path is mental, spiritual and emotional. Your physical world will take care if itself, if you take care of the other domains.

On that note, I’ll share your horoscope from my favorite eclectic wordsmith, Rob Brezsny.

“Just because you’ve become accustomed to a certain trouble doesn’t mean you should stop searching for relief from that trouble. Just because a certain pain no longer knocks you into a demoralized daze for days at a time doesn’t mean it’s good for you. Now here’s the good news: In 2018, you can finally track down the practical magic necessary to accomplish a thorough healing of that trouble and pain. Make this the year you find a more ultimate cure.

Personal Archeology of Diligent Creative Endeavours

The things we make in the rapid pace of creativity, often fall judgement to our own perfectionism and subjectivity at the time,… But, one stashed away and preserved, they can become artefacts that show us how we became ourselves. Additionally, by preserving output made by our co-conspirators and collaborators, we can help fill in the gap’s of their stories.

In this case, videos made by my dear pals; Brandon G Kiggins (Formerly of Utah, now of Brooklyn/NYU) “the environmentalist” (award-winning); Eiji Masuda #RIP Japan who was my collaborator on the pioneering digital doc Hempen Road (20 years old this year) “Mistaking the shadow” #Experimental; A documentary about the Russian revolution “The beginning of our troubles” made by my Uncle Mark Bannatyne while at USU doing graduate studies; I film by my mom Lauralee Elliott #RIP with significant assistance from the aforementioned Brandon Kiggins, while at #UVCC “Tattoo”, note: long before everyone had a tattoo :-); a public TV show which broadcast clips from the previously mentioned Hempen Road “Master Weed theater”; and finally the one labelled “giggling piglet co-op” features me and the Japanese girl on the island of Guam demonstrating flower sticks and talking about the Grateful Dead and Jerry Garcia who had recently died on a show called “Buenas” and might also contain a similar juggling stick performance from Tottori, Japan which appeared on the nationally broadcast morning show “Zoom in Asa”. in some cases, these might be the only remaining evidence of these diligent creative endeavors. Eventually they will be digitized and shared an archived so the hours that one into them and the inspiration which comes out of them, can pass on to others.

What do you have in your closet or shoe box which Will surprise and inspire your friends and strangers?

from Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/p/BSSvCKCh8dK/

Tarot Reading Aug. 2016

My dear friend K. did this reading for me as she’s done a few times over the years. Sharing here as a “note to future self”. No additional commentary expected.

Dave’s birthday tarot reading 2016
1. Present position: Hierophant “the teacher, counselor, consultant” There is a desire for a major breakthrough, to apply creativity and feel stretched.
2. Immediate influence: Princess of Swords “The Mood Fighter”. There’s a need to be a mood fighter by using common sense and practical thinking.
3. Goal: Prince of Cups “The Lover” Desire to express your passions and feelings fervently.
4. Distant past: The Lovers (reversed)
Relationships unbalanced, some will be deepened, others strained and split. Balance of opposites-dark/light, male/female.
5. Recent past/present: 10 of cups- Satiety(reversed). Emotional passion and vitality are drained.
6. Future: 3 of cups – Abundance. There is an outpouring of love and positive feeling. Tell others around you of your love for them.
7. You: Princess of Swords “The Creative, Intuitive Thinker “. Committed to cut through limitations that prevent mental clarity. A new way of thinking is trying to break through.
8. Relationships: 5 of Wands-Strife. Desire to release this frustration in the next 5 weeks to 5 months.
9. Hopes & Fears: Prince of Disks (reversed)-“The Physical Architect “. Issues concerning physical activity. You need determination and practical thinking to move forward.
10. Culmination: Fortune “abundance & prosperity”. There is a major breakthrough with creative process and more flexibility and insight. Maybe an unexpected opportunity or inheritance.

Towns with culture and interestingness

Towns with culture and interestingness – places with culture and semi-populated:

Portland, OR
Ashville, NC
Santa cruz, CA
Austin, texas
Santa fe, NM
Taos, NM
Telluride, CO
Carbondale, CO
Durango, CO
Mendicino, CA
Morro bay, CA
San louis Obisbo, CA
Bodega bay, CA

small towns with next to nothin but well worth the consideration

Marfa, TX (small town near big bend national park)
Terlingua, TX (ghost town closer to big bend with a surprising amount of culture, music, art, gun slingers, ex patriots, drug smugglers, and random people who come out of the woodwork daily)

Earthship VW Bus Rolls on …

Lowdown: Parked in the ‘back 40’ of my Grandma’s house at 456W 200S, Logan, UT . Go around the barn tothe back area to check it out. It is the big tall blue and white dome bus – well appointed with stickers.

Details: 1974 VW bus with full dome with sleeping and storage up top. Custom insulation, wood panels and bed/cupboard set-up within. 1800cc engine (rebuilt years ago – maybe 1987), Weber progressive carburetor and replaced transmission about 1992.

Story: The “Earthship” has sat since 1993 when I drove it from Vancouver and parked her before going to Japan the second time. The first 4 years were in inside storage shed. In 1996, I started it (without jumping) and drove it to where she sits. Mechanically the bus needs work but inside it dry and in goodshape. The body is mostly rust free (a few scrapes which were sprayed over a few years back). Though the hoses are cracked and tires flattened, it isn’t in much different shape from when I last drove it.

Deal: Since I have to move it out of Granny’s yard and am planning to go to law school somewhere soon, I wish to sell it as-is/where-is for $420. I will come down to haul out any personal belongings and exchange the title. Bear in mind these full dome buses are rare and in good shape have a $3-6,000 market price on eBay.

Bonus: I will leave any spare parts and a copy of the “Idiots Guide to VW” plus the official factory service manual with knowledge on everything from fuses to overhauls. There are even baskets of mountain bike parts and whatnot and a few paintings which may come along with the deal ;-)

Story: I am (admittedly) a bit blue about passing the bus along as I have a heavy emotional investment so to speak. I bought it in 1986 and rolled throughout USA, Canada and Mexico in that van. Slept hundreds of nights while going to University of Utah, dozens on Grateful Dead parking lots, fat tire festivals, held hostage at gunpoint in New Mexico, rolling from east coast metropolises to deep into canyonlands, across prairies, Baja beaches … well you get the idea. I had always planned to fix it up again and again roll on down the road but alas I must deed further adventures to a new captain.

SOLD Sorry folks, ….�

Autzen Stadium – June 24, 1990 | Grateful Dead

Autzen Stadium – June 24, 1990 | Grateful Dead

A few notes on Saunas from Hemp Ed …

SOOTHING SAUNAS AND STEAM ROOMS

If you want to kick it up another notch and raise health benefits to the next level, visit the sauna or steam room following a workout at the local gym. The intense heat stimulates blood circulation near the skin, which triggers more intense sweating, and you may easily shed a pint or more of sweat — along with accompanying fats and toxins — even in a short stay. Saunas and steam rooms are both good for you, though they tend to impact the body in slightly differing ways. According to Dr. Stengler, saunas and steam rooms help wastes exit out through sweat and sebaceous glands. In the end, which you choose is largely a matter of personal taste. Here’s what you can expect from the various options…

1. Steam rooms provide moist heated air.

2.Traditional European-style saunas provide dry and then wet heat when you splash water on hot rocks or a stove to generate steam).

3. Electric saunas provide only dry heat.

Benefits of intense heat and sweating in steam rooms and saunas include flushing of dirt and debris from the skin… general detoxification… pain relief from conditions such as arthritis, backaches and sports injuries by increasing blood circulation and removing accumulated pain-causing acidic metabolites… stress reduction, and an overall sense of relaxation and well-being.

NEW KID ON THE BLOCK: INFRARED SAUNAS

Dr. Stengler also told me about a relatively new alternative — far infrared saunas. These special saunas harness infrared radiation to heat the skin without warming the air. An infrared sauna usually consists of a wooden box with several infrared heaters, with the box offering the atmosphere of the traditional sauna while heaters emit the actual radiation. People who are fans of infrared radiation point out that it offers the same health benefits as conventional alternatives, but with certain advantages. For example, traditional steam rooms and saunas may be more likely to spread germs because of the moist air, and some people have trouble breathing in air that is very warm. On the other hand, many people enjoy the sensations of relaxation and well-being they more typically associate with sweating out toxins in warm and/or moist air. Once again, it’s a matter of personal preference. Just be careful to avoid over cooking yourself with the penetrating radiant heat.

SAFE SWEATING IN THE SAUNA

Of course, there’s a right way and a wrong way to go about using saunas and steam rooms. To safely sweat your way to good health, Dr. Stengler recommends…

* If you are pregnant, or if you suffer high blood pressure, heart disease, diabetes or other chronic health problems, check with your physician first. Intense heat makes your heart pump faster and raises your pulse rate by 30% to 50%.
* Don’t visit the steam room or sauna if you’re not feeling well, or if you’ve been drinking alcohol, and leave at once if you begin to feel nauseous, dizzy or otherwise unwell. Those on medications should check with their doctor before using a sauna or steam room. You should also avoid wearing jewelry when inside, so it does not get damaged.
* Drink water before and afterward — 12 ounces for every 15 minutes in a sauna — and continue to sip water while inside. Dr. Stengler adds that an electrolyte solution would be even better, and that more effective versions than the usual Gatorade are available from health food stores. Also be sure to have plenty of salt in your system as well, especially if on medication or if you are prone to low blood sodium (a blood test can tell you if you are). Even a short session can result in significant fluid and salt loss, and you don’t want to become dehydrated or sodium deficient.
* Keep it short and sweet. A general rule of thumb is 10 to 15 minutes in the steam room or 20 to 30 minutes in the dry sauna once or twice a week. Dr. Stengler adds that these numbers really depend on individual health, and healthy people can safely stretch their stays to 15 to 20 minutes in the steam room and as long as 60 to 90 minutes (with cooling off breaks every 15 minutes) in the dry sauna and 30 minutes (with a 15-minute break halfway through) in the infrared sauna. Conversely, people with conditions such as high blood pressure will need to keep sessions shorter. When in doubt, consult your physician for advice. Whether you go low-tech with just exercise or high-tech (if relaxing in the sauna can be high-tech) with saunas and steam, sweating is one simple and effective way to contribute to health and fitness. As always, just be sure you go about it safely.

A kind thank you email from a recent event…

I want to thank you again for taking the time to present at the last Speaker Series event for the XXXX.

You are truly an amazing presenter. You have a way of engaging the audience that is uncommonly effective. I noticed that no one left the room while you were speaking and people were standing at the back…relatively transfixed.

This is the second time I have had the opportunity to hear you speak about the little Vancouver social media company that has become an internationally-recognized product with amazing growth.

Really inspirational. And, as a media trainer and presentation trainer, I learned a lot about how to engage an audience by simply telling relevant stories.

Again, thank you for taking the time. It is really appreciated.

Mudhoney rock