Category Archives: Notes to Future Self

notes and miscellanea kept for amusement and further reference – lists, recipes, notices, oddities and secret messages

Aside: Japan’s change in next 20 years

this kura (in Saidaiji), built in Meiji and now falling in in itself has witnessed so much cultural change – both in Japan and the world at large

Japan’s change in next 20 years

Somehow I feel like we’re going into a massively interesting time of transition in Japan. 

I keep in mind how Japan radically transformed culturally and societally a short period of time during the Meiji *restoration* and then again (under obviously very different circumstances) after the Pacific war. 

I think that when my little son (born Reiwa 2) is 20, Japan will be a very different place and a lot of this starts with a return to rural areas and traditional, sustainable living.  You may say I’m a dreamer but… well in i am 🙂

Memo: strange dreams (despite all the goodness)

wall of kura barn somehow the contrast makes sense

strange dreams (despite all the goodness)

So many weird dreams last night. Did nice “loving kindness“ meditation before sleep and tried to let all the natural disasters & human conundrums float into night sky but maybe it’s all getting to me a little bit.

Themes of not being able to catch up and do enough on “anything“.

Wishing peace and calm to all sentiment beings as possible.

So much wonderfulness in my life but sometimes well, the serotonin and dopamine or whatever just get a little out of whack… So much I want to do but I have to remember to roll it slow.

Everything is trucking along and yeah, reflecting on how much has happened in this last year under unusual circumstances.
I better just pick up the ukulele…

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Ed says, “Seems to me u just might be overthinking the situation a little. Or, u just might be holding yourself to a higher standard than others expect from you. You’ve been doing great, accomplished one hell of a lot in a short period of time. Lighten up on yourself. Enjoy, just enjoy what you’ve got. Deep breath. Love ya.”

Kim says, ” This is my constant struggle! You’re doing a great job, just knowing you’re out there in the world really helps to keep me calm & inspired!” 

Memo: Personal Archeology > for years and decades

Embark on Personal Archeology

Think of *every* surface as your own personal notebook and remind often you’re doing *this for yourself* and for the future and everyone else is just kind of “bonus” looking over your shoulder. In other words, write when you can, write what you want > mix medias and metaphors, use social channels as a memo book to later copy & paste and expand into your archive.

Importantly: don’t put pressure on yourself, days are *just days* – you’re doing this for years and the decades.

Memo: Pearls Before Swine

 Pearls before Swine (ps i love pigs)

Consider being careful about putting your precious ‘pearls before swine’, meaning that some people will never get *it* and if they haven’t figured *it* out already, they are unlikely to. There is possibly something in themselves that they have to fix before they can figure out how to give you the respect you deserve. It’s on them, not you.

You have wonderful things to share which you carefully consider before sharing (pearls) and you share with people who quickly skim-read and disregard or barely process.

You spend your precious time and spoons for little benefit because they (swines) don’t take the time to ponder, care, or respond in thoughtful manner or take action.

This is all optional unsolicited advice, govern yourself accordingly. 

Prayer for the Lost Ones

“Old Tree , please give us wisdom, patience and strength”

My heart aches for each of them, the undiscovered ones, the forgotten ones, the families, the grandmas, the grandchildren that will never be… its all too much to bear for even the distant.

All of the lies, deceit & hubris is completely unacceptable. No excuses. No more committees, studies – only positive, sincere healing actions informed by those affected.

Starts with accountability, apologies & restitution beyond filthy lucre.

This is the end of the beginning & a time to renew with deliberate empathy & generativity. Plant a new garden of trust & equity.

The past pushes us, the future awaits us.

Summer plans: Baritone Ukulele and writing hiragana / katakana

On my stated list of objectives for this year, I plan to:

1) Learn to play a song or 3 on baritone ukulele to amuse my baby boy. I’m up to 4 chords but strumming still clumsy. Sorta figured out tabs & even printed Early Morning Rain & Landslide & Wheat Kings.

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2) Learn to read/write Japanese characters *properly* since I live here, I figured it would be handy – ugh. Noting I’m much better at place name and personal name kanji characters that I am at phonetic kana – thank it’s the same misfiring neural synapse is that prevent me from memorizing the most basic of phone numbers #Dyscalculia

3) Probably something else but I’ll stick to those two.

PS (Really there’s a mighty long list of things to do for putting the house back together, fixing up yard & garden, as well as “life administration” tasks but file the above under personal improvement/enjoyment).

Memo: Regarding Personal Archeology (for starters)

Sent to a friend who was feeling confused about how to get started archiving and documenting one’s own creative life ~ shared here for edification – sorta for business-y types i suppose

In brief: Gotta just start… choose the things which are important to you and interesting about you, but make this easy by “meta documenting” your documentation. 

what may look like *too much* and clutter-y is really a delightful afternoon or 3 of discovering and contextualizing your projects and life

Ergo: Regarding personal archeology… Rather than feeling sh!tty, start by doing the *easy things* to chronicle the things you’ve pulled off this last bunch of years.

i.e.

  • List of all the speaking engagements you’ve done
  • List of all the events you planned/ wrangled/ coordinated/ hosted
  • List of speaking gigs you rocked
  • List of all the media, tv appearances/ news write-ups List of all the publications/articles you are in or wrote etc
  • List of all the jobs/positions you held

Then you can start to chronicle/ archive the particular artifacts from each of the above as available.

You might fall into a very nice rhythm – practical meditation in a way.

Turn off the TV, put on the music and space out with yourself and you’re fascinating history.

These kinds of things are good mental exercise but also I put forth somehow “important” and future *you* will be grateful for present day *you* for doing so.

Of course some examples at my website #NotAPlug Let me know if you require further encouragement or advice.

Memo: “Time Travel is everywhere”

Bending space and time from the Drawing Room in Kuala Lumpur – wonder where these ended up?

Time travel is everywhere ~ we pass the wormholes every day ~ devices disguised as common place but quite exceptional: phone booths, letter boxes, fax machines, CB/ham radios, telegrams etc all bend space and time – if used strategically. Closest points require folding.

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Gentle Advice: Roll slow, be gentle, eat healthy (read War and Peace)

Make friends with heavy books

Roll slow, be gentle, eat healthy, look out for your vulnerable friends and neighbours, minimize TV, start a novel, watch all the foreign films you’ve always meant to, crack open War & Peace like you should’ve years ago / hit me up if you need some podcasts or train videos #hugs

More: commentary on this topic on a popular social networking software place.

Memo: all the mediums, all at once, any time

everything, all at once, all the time

Painting, Letter writing, Collage, Podcasting, all at once. Totally usual behaviour right?

Stories are stories – the important this is to create and then share (if’n ya want).

Be your own master of all crafts/media.

Memo: a fork in the spoons

Fujita family ohaka grave marker – our home is just beyond

Sometimes life’s circumstances create conundrums – a fork in the spoons, (he says, mixing metaphors). So when I need to sort the spork out, I come here, talk to the ancestors, do some walking meditation, light incense, wash graves and see if *the* path presents itself or, *a* path anyway, a *middle* path perhaps.

Note: I like to think about the stories behind the stones. And here in Japan, pour water on top of the graves, light incense – clap & bow.
PS in this case, this is grandpa Ichiro (died at 49 yrs old many years ago) and grandma Tomiko who died just after our Ichiro was born.
We’ve had a lot of wind storms recently so I like to tidy up their little area though I neglected to take some fresh flowers this time.

Our house is just behind the cemetery so you can kind of see the hills and green space behind us

Memo: tree, roots, wall, rock, house…

Sometimes the tree and the roots and the wall and rocks and the house are all the same thing.