I have outstanding conversations with friends for catch-ups, folks with some sort of business ideas, friends recently with kids who i want to send proper telegram/gift etc. for, others with questions about the surgery i alluded to, Ichiro’s ambulance mishap, state of my medical situation, thoughts about coming for a visit, what I’m feeling about New Year cards with postal conundrums, when’s that next poetry zine coming out, where are those recent really good podcasts I made, how about that big poetry book you keep meaning to work on
Yet between all of those things,
so much life happening with litlle and monumental; sweet potato harvest festivals, Ryoko full-on in her busy season of work, trying to keep the household patched together amidst breaking freezers, forgotten grocery orders, various infestations by wild boar and otherwise
Plus an upcoming preschool stay-over event, waiting for Ryoko’s tree doctor test results, trying to get the last of the caboose job finished up before winter, couple Santa Claus “method actor performances” and a low-key casual Christmas drop in lunch…
I mean it sounds normal and easy for a normal healthy person but I am not healthy nor normal. October had six, or was it seven, hospital visits for me plus well other unscheduled situations
Barely have a chance to pick up the notebooks or scrapbook or the ukulele – and most postcards aren’t making it through the blockades – but I’m trying… All this is a long way of saying:
“I haven’t forgotten about you, not become a ghost, just sort of a little bit faded & get to ya there eventually”
Pick up when you see a caller ID number that has a whole bunch of digits that imply Japan
You probably know I maintain 400+ simultaneous conversations thus sometimes conversations I really wanna stay up with on get confused with so many various channels & methods – analog, digital or otherwise, and just don’t happen in a timeline like I’d prefer
But I’ve read enough Albert Camus to understand that is all kind of ridiculous to plan when the universe is going to universe as it wants to
Anyway, I’m trying my best, ring you soon, OK bye #faded
